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[dreamsallotted]

He wasn't here. It's easier not to miss someone if you don't talk about them constantly.

The reminder.

[64th]

You love him?

[dreamsallotted]

With everything I am.

[Wait till you find out about the son he never talks about either, Cash.]

[64th]

He should be nicer about you.

[dreamsallotted]

[Seel actually laughed at that text. Out loud. He found it completely hilarious.]

I think a lot of people back home would think I should be nicer to him.

[64th]

Both of those things can be true. I'm not going to pretend I don't know that you're not everyones favorite varietal.

[dreamsallotted]

Swift is not the problem here.

[64th]

You're rough around the edges. You're not a bad person, even if you've done bad things.

[dreamsallotted]

I can't afford to be rough around the edges. I'm a diplomat and political liason, I advise Swift who runs an entire continent.

The fact that I can't control my mouth or my actions is a problem.

[64th]

[ now it's her turn to laugh. sorry, Seel. ] You're a diplomat? You?

[dreamsallotted]

I can be nice and diplomatic.

Sometimes.

[It's hilarious isn't it?]

[64th]

You must keep him busy.

[dreamsallotted]

Which is probably part of the problem.

I can't keep creating issues when we have larger ones to fix.

But it feels so good.

[64th]

I know. Sometimes you just have to smile, though.

[dreamsallotted]

I really hate having to smile and be nice, compliant Seel. I want to be the bitch I really am.

[But that doesn't solve problems, does it?]

[64th]

I'm not sure that's who you really are.

[dreamsallotted]

How the hell would you know?

[64th]

Because I know bad people. And I know other people, [ like herself but shhhhhhhhh ] who act a certain way because they have to protect themselves. If people are afraid they'll never get around to make a real judgment about character or intelligence or - any of it. There's power in it. When you have no control over anything else you've got to take anything anyway you can get it.

[dreamsallotted]

[he wanted to text back that she was wrong. But the more he thought about it the more he wasn't sure. When you have no power you have take any anything you can get your hands on.]


You're right.

Problem is it doesn't completely apply to me anymore and I can't stop doing it.

[64th]

Have you tried?

[dreamsallotted]

Yes Cash, I've tried.

[64th]

Just double-checking. What have you tried?

[dreamsallotted]

It's harder than it sounds, Cash.

[He hadn't locked any up on ......15, 20 years? Did that count?]

[64th]

I know. You want everything to be better though, right?

[dreamsallotted]

Yeah...I do.